He never fails...

It's june this month, the heat of SPM is getting greater. After all the fun we had during the past united cf camp 2008, i guess it's now time to really put effort in my studies. Well, faith without works is dead, no point praying for good results but not studying and hoping for good results to fall from the sky!!

Time flies, in a few more months, i'm leaving school... heading where?? still uncertain. but i guess this is the most challenging question... what do you want to become?? who will you be? what is your worth?? AHH!! My mind is bursting!!! Anyway, knowing that my future lies in God's hand gives me the security and confidence to carry on, walk by faith and not by sight.
Last month,had our COMBINE SCHOOL CF CAMP 2008.Cool huh? networking with different people from different schools. This is the very first time having a combine scf camp with so many schools from all over Penang, even overseas(BM)!! Looking back, it was tough, but it has already come to past!! When we first started, it came in a vision of having cf beyond borders. I totally believe that good things are not only for us only...we share we care... hehe

It had been a time where we as cf committees need to walk by faith and not by sight. As the organising chair person, sometimes, feeling quite disappointed, as the person who is suppose to be the one who encourages us and give good advice, instil fear instead and not really playing their part. I did have a dream about this camp and woke up 4am in the morning to realise that it was just a nightmare. I couldn't believe what i saw in the dream, but anyway, it sort of like telling me that it wouldn't be easy...that's how i interpret it as now i can see the whole picture, after it's all over.

Thinking back, we were kinda 'cool' in the sense that we were so bold, just go to any christian teachers and asked them to help us. Well, i'm quite touched as they even took the trouble to help us up, even though it is 'non of their business'. That time, we can be considered as
very 'dangerous' people as if the situation is getting tougher, the more we wanna carry on.. so exciting..kekez...for now la...but not that time.

Of course, i'll be tired and also did asked God for a 'NO' if it is not His will for this camp to go on...that was my prayer before i spoke to one of the administrators(chance is not so high). BUT she didn't say 'no' but rather asked us to prepare the paper work, proposal..etc to apply from JPN. ok well, it's not a 'NO' , so just carry on, even it sounds so ridiculous.

Being very human, i do doubt God and asked Him WHY? What is this that we are going through?? Why is the process so hard? Thank God for people who gave support through prayer, words of comfort and encouragement, etc. Yea, that's the importance of biblical friends and mentors!! After much prayer, i just felt that it is done! Although the situation doesn't shows.
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When finally we decided to see our HM to present our case, i had a flash back of the events that had happened going through my mind. Then, it's like so suddenly, i totally understand what is going on these few years...REVELATION!! My face brightened up with understanding, no more puzzled look!! Once we were out, i told my committee who was with me... 'yea, we're going under Hamid Khan!!'

Through the process, my faith had been tested and stretched. God carried me through, I'm nothing but merely dust!

It's just so amazing!! He had led me this far and will continue to lead me on!